Terminus Est

Terminus Est


It's been the End of the World
But just the chosen ones
Felt the world reborn in their hearts

It all went down
It didn't crumble
It just dissapeared to me

And there was me
I was a part of all
And yet I became nothing

Here we are
This is the end
Going back where all began
We grow apart
The last embrace
Everything's back to its place

It's been the Last of our Days
But just you and I
Ever felt so much regret

It all got out
From our hands
Seems we didn't have control

And there was you
A part of none
The guilty or the sad

Here we are
This is the end
Going back where all began
We grow apart
The last embrace
Everything's back to its place

We go on
We forgot
Or pretend that it was not
But we know
Something ended up
To be the start of something new

~†~

*†Dark.Night.Angel.†*

Hurt (ME)

Hurt (ME)

I.ntro:

"I've thrown myself to the blade that lies pointing to my heart and bled enough to heal my self, do I deserve to die in pain or just without you?"

II.
I, myself, am not sufficient
I, myself, am not enough
To satisfy my scorching flesh
I've decided not to hate
Life's decided not to love me

Why must it hurt when I love?

III.
I don't trust in me anymore
When it comes down to life and death
One does trick you, one's unfair
One is painful, one is real
You don't want me nearby you

Why must you hurt me when I love?


IV.
I am not as scared
As you are of me
Make me feel you
Make me love you
Make me hurt you
Like you do
(to me)

Oblige me to let go
Tell me not to hold you close
Do not suffer for I do (for you)
Don't you die in my arms before I do!
And at night, angel's cry is falling from above...

Why must I hurt everything I love?


V.
Life whiters between my hands
Between caresses, inside a kiss
Your breathe is gone...
I feel so vain
I've forgotten how it feels to be in pain...

Why must I love everything that hurts?!

VI.
It's your blood
The poison
The nails
And the thorns
And the coal
And it burns
And it aches
It feels
It moves
And it drifts
Into ashes...
... and the ashes don't speak.

VII.
I
Hurt
(ME)

~†~

*†Dark.Night.Angel.†*

HYPNOS (Escape)

HYPNOS
(Escape)


Following the doorway to a dream
Down to where nothing is what it seems
Living in a world where all is fake
Wondering if one way I'll awake

Triggering the past to see me soar
Travelling inside into my core
Release all the pain of the last score
After all the common flux is tore

Experience of death in fantasy
Reaching to the point of ecstasy
Leaving in a state of lunacy
Shall I enter paradise in secrecy

When the light appears to lose its gleam
Everything according to the scheme
I begin to wonder "What if I
Break this to reality defy?"

Back into the Darkness of the soul
Feelings have started looking old
Scenes that often end up on a trim
Spaces that confuse reality

It's just a dream!

Curtains made of silken masking tape
Thwarting all the times I tried to escape
Make me think of things that I can't feel
Questioning myself if I am real

Being inside someone else's sleep
With lost memories I want to keep
And by dawn the world I know forsake
Because it is high time I awake

~†~

*†Dark.Night.Angel.†*

Time

Time

It is said
Time heals
Always changes everything
Makes us old
Makes us whither
Makes us grow apart

And each day
With this grudge
Growing older

Overflowing (ME)

There's still time
To forever
But I can't
Endure this pain
Dying little by little

There is time
To forget
But I won't
'Coz I know myself
I just want to live fast
And die young

It is said
Time kills
Sometimes soft, sometimes gentle
Makes us cold
Makes us warmer
Makes us change our hearts

And each day
With the distance
Coming closer

Overcoming (ME)

There's still time
To forbid
And it shall
Consume myself
Dying minute by minute

There is time
To forgive
But I won't
'Coz you know me well
I just want to live fast
And die young...

.,,But I cling on to life.

~†~

*†Dark.Night.Angel.†*

OBS.cure

OBS.cure

This obsessive cure I found for me to feel relief is cloister
No longer can I endure the pain when you are getting closer

And I can't believe that I can't resist, want to taste your sweet & sour
I cannot desist and I must release what consumes me every hour

So I turn the blade carving in and in shall I see the damage made
Everything will fade, will my hunger jade? after all the cost is paid

Then I turn into a mute and deaf and dumb and crippled blind
After all, evertyhing that I am is onlywhat I find:

nothingusefulnothInguselessnothingrightanDnothingwrong
nothIngperfectnothingmOrbidnothingnothingnoThingmore

And my brain will fuse as you will refuse all my touching+killing+tender
So I have to choose any way I lose I cannot ever forget

I cannot ever forgive I cannot ever forget
I remember then that what you give is always what you get

This obsessive cure I found myself to feel relief is lavish in your sadness
It's the only way that you showed me for sure will heal my madness

This obssesive cure won't let me hear you screaming
This obssesive cure won't let me see you pleading
This obssesive cure won't let me make you LOVE ME!
This obssesive cure won't let me tell you HUG ME!
This obssesive cure won't let me touch your face

After all you should understand that this is only a phase
And never forgive and never forget -what you give is what you get.

~†~

*†Dark.Night.Angel†*

HELL

HELL

Next to garnet edges
Come and lie the fallen angels
Those who couldn't face the changes
We're complicated
Visualize our hearts as mazes
You can see through people's faces

No one dares to enter to the place of one's perdition
No one can regret decisions
I silent despair we're changing every truth to lies
To become a sacrifice

Everyone is walking down a one-way downhill street
Beneath an overcast sky
In the middle I look back and sing myself to sleep
An oblivion lullaby

As the rain falls down I can still hear what I was told
That no light comes from above
I'd hold on to anything just far from feeling cold
Though I was being burned down by love

As the heat consumes me
I still search for something to be
But there's no reason to live (anymore)
Going through the lane to reach the end
We can't just see
Anymore than to give in

Everyone is waling down a one-way downhill street
Our ripped wings will to fly
And my eyes care just too tired to keep
The last image of goodbye
We are walking down to darkness gates (All is gray)
Beneath an overcast sky
In the middle I look back and sing myself to sleep
An oblivion lullaby

Lost in hope
We still yearn for the one to come and save us
But we fail to see our saviour
As we drown in darkness we realize that light was here
It was ourselves that we feared (All along)

Everyone is waling down a one-way downhill street
Our ripped wings will to fly
And my eyes care just too tired to keep
The last image of goodbye
We are walking down to darkness gates (All is gray)
Beneath an overcast sky
In the middle I look back and sing myself to sleep
An oblivion lullaby

An oblivion lullaby.

I'm lonely walking down this path
My one-way downhill street
To the limits of my choice
I would live and die again
If only I could hear the sweet
The sweet salvation of your voice

~†~

*†Dark.Night.Angel.†*

THANATOS ~Primal Instinct~

THANATOS
~Primal Instinct~

Pages of a lifetime diary lie on the earth
With embroidered traces of sorrow on my wrists
Standing I am, looking from the shelf
(I am insane)
Feeling so anxious to destroy myself
To ruin my dreams and end my pain
Letting go of my tears within the rain

I am sick of waking-dreaming
Hard to find what to believe in
I just want to breathe deep and then syncopate
(Watch me fade)
Disappear,
(With no fear)
Kill my faith,
(and my fate)
And end up with the person that I hate...

...Alone.

'I fear nothing, and you're nothing to me so I fear you... Why must it be this way?'

~†~

*†Dark.Night.Angel.†*

Elegy

Elegy

It's time for you to leave
Oh! You know who The Bells toll for...
Unable to say, What I felt for you
I remain silent, Whispering the truth
Between my lips, the words never told
Between your arms, an embrace turns cold

Your twin in the mirror still cries
For you, and the pain she cannot hide.
Forever mine, Forever yours
My feeling, Your feeling, This feeling,
Our love...

It's time for me to leave...
Oh! Love, Will The Stars come light my way?
Alas! Will you love me Come What May?
Even in Life, Even in Death?
Even when you took my One Last Breath?

Flesh will burn
Tears will dry
Please don't cry
Just turn around

Away from me
Away from the grave
Keep the smile I could not save

'Silent Lover, lying in your grave,
Love Me, Love Me once again'

Everything you have left
In your lips, In your arms
The One Last Kiss, the Coldest Charm
(All I have left)
Where once was my Soul
Now there is a gap
Enough to carve my Epitaph.

'Thou Shalt Not be Forgotten'

~†~

*+Dark.Night.Angel.+*

Limbo

Limbo

Here...
In the darkness where I dwell,
Where my dreams die within their hopes
Of coming true
I hear sweet words come
From the screams of my inside,
The only sound...

I bleed my tears
In a fake cry
Bereft of feeling sorrow
Or pain,
I weep...
...for me

Here...
In the darkness of my self
I have stopped believing
In myself,
For I am no longer
And I sleep
Anymore...

Yet I shed
Drops of self-deception
I cannot feel
Burden or ordeal
It is the same
Punishment for ever...

And I will ask
Never again
For a whisper,
For a light,
For a moan,
To give rein to
Pitiful hollers
Where I may delight
My forgotten senses
Till I come to death...
...again

Here...
In this darkness of mine
It is a sin
To exist
Surrounded by nothing
May eternity exempt me
Of the nothing I feel

Will I be freed then
Not by light
But
By eternal rest

Amen!!


~†~

*†Dark.Night.Angel.†*

Decisions

Decisions

The scars have vanished
Wishing were cherished
I was to finish
Now I am to perish

I felt offended
My wounds not mended
And still stranded
Fell and surrendered
Then...

I sleep
I fall
I wake up
And crawl
And I rise
when I hear your call

My conscience fading
Your name was calling
And slowly invading
The calm was coming

My pain relieving
My past reliving
Soon I will be able
To touch your face
Once more...

I hid
My fault
My sins
And my flaws
Lullaby for a soul
That is lost

It was my vision
And my decision
The pain was there
But without a reason (Why?)

The last words written
My mind just broken
And my veins swollen
Prayed for me
To end this way

I'm weak
I'm cold
I'm nothing
At all
But a coward
When I hear your call

I weep
I cry
And I'm tired
To try
To pretend that
I'm living...

...At all

~†~

*+Dark.Night.Angel.+*

BLUE

BLUE

Rain is falling from my eyes
And I have this empty feeling
Filling me...

What have I done?
I drown in myself
The blue in her eyes
Had never been deeper before

Her frozen look
Is killing me
For she will never see me again
Her hollow eyes
Are haunting me
Now, what is this supposed to mean?

I touched her face
I saw her cry
I kissed her lips
And said goodbye

Her eyes still blue
Showed no reflection
But the consequence of my affection

That frozen look
With darkened core
Tells me that she will cry no more
With shades in red
I saw her life
Flow like a river
'Til she died

What have I done?
What does this mean?
Why has she left me?
Does she breathe?

She hurts me bad...
... more than she did to herself
In her blue eyes
There was my self

There was the guilt
There was the love
And in her tears
Gone all of her fears

I'm lying here
Right next to you
I take your hand
What else to do?
I want to die
Inside the blue
I want to be
Again with you...

~†~

*+Dark.Night.Angel.+*